Archive for February, 2012

The thrill is gone..

Posted: February 13, 2012 in Uncategorized

It’s been a while since I wrote for myself. I really wanted to, but I just couldn’t. I guess that’s the drawback of being in a profession where you are paid to write. When you enter work and are forced to write, a part of you gets caged. “We need to send this out in the next half hour. It’s urgent.” These words become a norm. These words force you to control your thoughts and still force your mind to out your bread and butter. You write to survive. But what survives? A living body feeding a dying mind. What meaning does it still hold?

The value of a word doesn’t come from caging your thoughts. It’s about letting them free. Letting them wander, far and near. Wherever they want.

A sense of freedom.

A sense of evolution.

A sense of creation.

We evolve as people only when we let our thoughts evolve. But I stopped feeling that freedom. My world, my thoughts, my voice croaked. I forgot what words meant to me. If I ever sat down to think, 10 different people in different forms interrupted my thoughts. As I write this, 5 have already come and done so.

I struggled. I really did. I didn’t know what to do, which way to go. Then the answer rang in my ears. Literally. It erupted with a twang, followed with a beat, ran like a wave of tones and lifted my thoughts to me. Music, my only solace.

It has a dramatic effect on my mind. It opens the floodgates and releases my thoughts. It causes a destruction that brings about peace. It’s reminiscent of the great flood. Only those thoughts true to me float aboard the great ark, safe and cared for. It’s the only thing worth saving. The rest is laid to waste, swept away, leaving me clean. My thoughts flow free and lucid. They fly, they soar, and they explore lands unknown. And that is where I find my words. They were waiting in the skies above, waiting for me, waiting for me to be free, waiting for the day I came back to me.